It's Impossible For Me...Shut up

I'm the qirl on the side
Hoping you'll make up your mind
I'm the one who will swallow her pride
One of the many, one of the few
To stand back and wait for you



This is not me. Maybe.
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You were next to me and asked for my name
It was very unexpected and you really seemed lame
I thought, what weirdo would come out of nowhere and ask that?
You followed me to the auditorium & next to me was where you sat
I didn't try to ignore you, I didn't want to be rude
And there was no reason to be, I was in a good mood
You kept talking about so many things, it wasn't awkward, you made it cool
I felt like we've been friends for a while
But we're freakin' strangers
I thought I'd be uncomfortable but I was chill, staring at your smile
You've no idea how weird it seems
How you made my day special, feels better than my best dreams
Not sure how you did it
But I'm under your spell
You still dazzle me and it's just your personality
You're nowhere to be found most of the time
Not knowing what to say about my feelings isn't a crime
But I have so much fear in me, I HATE IT.
At the same time, I can't say anything at all
Your not there, there's no way I can speak to you
There's no way for me to get close to you.
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I know my poetry skills SUCK. But i like to be able to express my feelings, you know?
I rhyme like a little kid, so yeah... Well if you actually read those poems i appreciate that you took your time to do that :]
First poem used to be something I could relate to but not anymore...Things changed. Second one is like a story about someone...obviously. I'm not telling you people who it is. I wish i never fell for him, it's so stupid. I don't get to see him much nowadays so it seems pointless and impossible to try to reach to his heart. But I barely see him so,really now, how can I talk to him personally? (Putting myspace and online crap aside)But ugh, I like him too much. Exactly...that's why it's stupid. Everyone went through this before & it's a pain. Crushing on dudes are a pain.