Deal With It

I just hate it when there's all this damned arguments at home. It's like a riot. Even if isn't me arguing, it just upsets me. I'm sick of it. And if I'm not in the arguments, somehow one of my parents blame me or get me in it.What the f*ck? And sometimes it's just full of shit, senseless. I know, I could just use my earphones and blast my iPod's music but it doesn't really make much difference. Sometimes, I'd like to run out of the house and go somewhere. I'd love to, really. But there isn't really anywhere to go. Especially with the cold weather & being that we still have school. God, I feel sorry that my brother would have to be with them while yell,yell,yell. I hope I can dorm if I can go to a college I wanna go to. I can't stay here, which is kinda sad.

This summer, right after I turn 17, I plan to get away for a while. I've no idea where. Hope I get a job around that time...So I can save up for the trip. I wanna go to Seaside Heights or somewhere pretty, near the beach. The beach is a really calming place to me & it'll mostly help me feel good esp. after junior year. I have to find a place to stay, like a hotel or something. There'll be 5 people or more coming along. I need summer, right now. I hate the cold weather!It's nuts to me.