Finding My Outta The Nightmare
Yesterday, was a horrible day. And Mr. Lon was being so mean. It's not even the type of mean that's like ohkay.
Well... I swear I was on the verge of...killing myself. Reminds me of the old past. I mean trust me, I've gone through depression but this one's one of the worst. Like reliving the depression from yearss ago...it was pretty hard to get rid of. i never went for a therapist though. my parents never knew. I'm sure they suspected something was wrong but then they probably thought it was some normal stressing. Well, that was before, I really don't remember the whole detail.
I don't know. Whatever I'm going through now, it's ridiculous. I could simply forget about it and move the F**k on. Easier said than done though.What I'm really trying to say is pretty hard to explain since I'm not trying to spill the other details.
I feel like I'm messed up now. I haven't studied due to...uh, lack of care. But I have been reading to take my mind off of a feel things, which really haven't been effective. The good thing is that I'm feeling a lot better. At the moment, I'm just trying to find the solution to the problem. Or something like that.
Monday, I suppose after 4th period, I won't be myself. That's a maybe, but it's guaranteed by 95%. ( 5% of hope in me.)
This is a lot, but heyyyyyyy...What do expect when a girl just don't feel so well? Yeah. I used to have xanga(another blog site) when i was younger. Same time when I went through some depression. You should've seen it, I typed like a lot, maybe like 2000 paragraphs. I don't blame myself for doing that as a kid, I never told people how I felt or anything. So in other words, yep my xanga was private at that time.
Enough of that. I hate to discuss about what's going on with me. Including the past.
Ohh yeah...The Movie Twilight is gonna be out soon! That's one thing I look forward to. I'm not done with the book though. I mean book 3, Eclipse. idk. the reason I couldn't finish it up was cause I didn't feel like in mood. Yeah...depression really makes everything stupid.
posted by Jeann @ 11:39 AM
1 Comments:
Omg Jeannie. I hate reading about things like this. You are such a great person, and you should definitly not be stressin so much. Don't let the little miniscule things get you down. Keep strong Jeannie, you have alot of friends that reallt care for you, me being one fo them. Don't do anythign stupid girl. You always have me if you need someone to talk to or if you need advice. And if you just one someone to listen, I can do that to, Just know that I'm here for you.
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