Can you believe that tomorrow is our last day of 2008? Seems like time is going by real quick, like everyone said. Usually it doesn't go by this quick. I think it's cause it's junior year or something. Sigh, I'm not gonna be used to writing 2009 as the date, I know i'll keep writing 2008. 2008 may have seem pretty awful but actually it wasn't so bad. It was better than some other years. Hopefully, 2009 will be better though. Oh goshhhhhh. I know I'll miss writing 2008, lol. '9' just isn't my favorite number. although that shouldn't have to do with anything, haha.

Essays are no fun. I hate essays only because I have to do 5 of them this winter break. Well, actually I've already done 2 & working on the third. I can't do one of the essays since I don't have my text book. So I can only do four of the essays unless I get the DBQ question from somebody.

Merry Christmas!!

Yesterday night my aunt had a party for the whole family. It was nice to spend the time with everyone, mainly my cousins. I played Rockband on Wii. Surprisingly, it's fun! I expected it to be like Guitar Hero or Taiko drums but it's much betterrr! Lol. It seemed like I didn't get a lot of gifts this christmas for some reason...Although as I've counted, everyone gave me a gift. But I don't care, the gifts this year were pretty decent cause I needed most of the gifts. Especially the HP 2GB flashdrive & SkullCandy earphones(even though I already bought the same exact one & same color, I'll need another for backup)!! I didn't really give the nicest gifts but I guess they're aren't that bad. I could've gotten everyone better gifts to match with what they got me but the thing is I've been running outta money at that time. Well, it was nice being around the family again. Such nice atmosphere really helped me clear my mind & I felt like I can enjoy it better.
I got my parents & my brother gifts as well. I think they liked it. I never really got them a gift before & well I thought i should be nice. The money i used was suppose to be for my haircut but...oh well, lol. I haven't gotten my gift from my parents yet...I doubt they have anything for tomorrow. not a bad thing but I guess they're trying to get something I want, which I can totally guess.

Musical Instruments ♫

I actually have this guitar that's in my closet for like 3 years. Never used it since I don't even know how to play it. I know how to play the piano a bit but well nothing when it comes to the guitar. I'd like to learn to play it & someday master it so I can try an electric guitar!! Haha. I remember a long time ago my parents kept telling me to take a free class to learn. I was pretty ignorant and strongly refused as I didn't like to embarrass myself & what not. I was afraid of messing up and feeling scared. Well then again, even now I'm still like that but it's not as bad. Back to the subject, I regret not learning how to play any instruments. I truly love music and to produce something so awesome would be really nice but lol, I can't. It's a waste to have that guitar if I'm not going to use it. Well, actually my little brother plays with it and broke one of the strings...I actually bought the replacement string which I don't know will be worth it or not. Maybe my brother should learn to play the guitar as her gets older! Haha my parents would be proud of him if he does. But to honest, even though I said I'd like to learn how to play the guitar, I'd much rather improve my little skills to play the piano. See I find the piano to produce soothing music & calms me so well. I feel like I can express through just music without lyrics or something. I don't wanna sound like a dork but it's true. And there's a lot of pieces that I would love to play.(except I can't get my hands on the music notes and all those things.) I've only learn from somebody else and did self learning to play piano when I was younger. That wasn't easy, since I have no piano to use. But right now I don't want to ruin my studies by getting distracted with learning about playing piano and stuff so maybe after junior year I'll attend a class for it.

Psychic

I never believe those type of things but hey, in this world, who knows what to believe anymore? I was around Chestnut street last weekend getting gifts for my family. I was about to head into H&M clothing store until this lady with very yellow teeth & horribly dyed hair came up to me. Despite how much of a drug addict she seemed to be, she sounded extra sophisticated. She claimed being a psychic and told me she sensed that I felt like in my life, not much will change & things will go on & on like a cycle. She wanted me to know the truth & whatnot. She even said something about two guys liking me , "one with facial hair & one without it". WTF? That really made laugh, for real. I was thinking, what type of made up shit is that? Hilarious, if you think about it. I even laughed at her. But I stopped once she said I have high spirit energy. The way she said that, made me wonder if that was a mere guess or if she really could feel it. I have my reasons. I'm not weak or the type who'd fall for stupid things like that but...i don't know. I can't say I never believed her but when she offered a reading for $20 I was like, "I got less than that". I just left and was relieved to be inside the H&M store. Honestly I felt as though she's really a psychic...And I might have found something out about what I've done that effects me now. Lol, I definitely didn't give a crap as soon as I saw the nice accesories in the store. x]

Unbearable

I'm sick of being here in my stupid house. More like sick of being with my parents. Or more like being with one of them.I hate it the most. I rather have detention to stay at school for an hour or so than to go home right after wards. Any where but here. I just recently spent all my money for their X-mas gifts & they're all b*tching at me. I really wanna return the items now. And just use the money for my haircut. I can't stand to be with them. Why can't they just stop yelling & screaming about stupid matters? It doesn't matter if I get good grades or not, they'll still say something about like "you don't appreciate me" or somthing that's not even true. Part of me feels like I'm going crazy from this. I don't feel like this is my "home" because I feel uncomfortable just being here.
I don't know if it's them who are insane or if it's me, myself. But then again, seems like everything is going insane. I know for sure I have the least tolerance therefore I can't stand to hear the yelling & all that f*cking nonsense. I'm thinking about joining some afterschool activities or something, just to get the fck away.

Hopefully I got the job I just applied to. I'll need the money for sure.

Sigh. Honestly, I enjoy going to school. Better than to stay home.

I Run My Life, Not Fate

People believe that fate exists, that it controls our lives and paths. Yeah SUREEE. I don't believe it. Or at least I don't want to believe that. We shouldn't have our futures just "set" like that. The only thing that fate should control is death I guess. I mean death( I'm talking about from aging! ) is inevitable so that's just different. But things like careers and whatnot, it shouldn't be controlled and set out like that because we should be able to change these things, you know? The funny thing is that a lotta movies that I like watching, fate has a big part in it. Most of them are scary movies so maybe I only like it because it's not about the role that fate plays...Hm. I don't know. Let's just say I won't accept fate to have any control or steer my path. My life should be in my hands and my decision. Besides, we only get one life to live so why not? Lol. This is probably one of the good topics I have ever typed & posted up. Everything else is just mixed up in this blog.

Need A New Phonee!

Clearly, I need a new phone. My two year contract ended, finally!! I'm not gonna get a stupid refurbished AT&T phone though. Yeah, if anyone didn't know AT&T, T-mobile, Sprint, & all those phone services only sell phones that are refurbished with their own service names on it & well they have limits compared to the original phones that are straight from the manufacturer. Phone that aren't refurb. are called unlocked phones, I think. Cause that means any or most phone services can be used with the phone :] But yeah, I plan on buying a phone with Wi-fi internet,MP3 player,FM radio,3MP+ (or more) camera. I'm really a #1 Sony Ericsson fan since their phones are awesome. I love my Sony E. phone cause of all of it's good functions & capabilities but...it's getting there you know? The new Sony Ericsson phones are improving but then there are some things that aren't, which is why I still like my old one. So far, I've only found two phones that I like & might be affordable in my situation.

First one's Sony Ericsson G705. I hope they'd release better color than gold and black. As far as I know I've only seen black with gold which looks...unappealing. But we're not going by appearance, it's all about functions!3MP cam.,MP3 + Wifi! It's about $360 or around there. Not sure if it's released here but the store I go to would order it for me.Price is ohkay...Since my contract will be renewed it'll be a lot less than that so I'm not worried. Maybe lowered to $100-200?
Second is Sony Ericsson C905. It's got 8MP Camera & that's the hottest part. You won't find lots of camera phone with such good MP & quality. MP3,Wi-fi, whatever.
Obviously, this phone is freakin pricey as shat. Only released in the U.K. for now, & I estimated the price would be about $500 or more when it's released here. I'm not sure bout this one even if the price will be lowered as I renew the contract...if I can get the money I'd buy it. I'm not rich. But I def. need a job.
Wanna know more about the phones?

Old memories

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the old memories from the past.
They were nice memories & I know for sure I can't ever go back to those times. But I would like to feel those good times right now. Just to feel that it would be pretty nice. Right now, nothing's the same as before. But I liked it a lot better when I was younger. I know most people might feel the same way as I do. I want to go


Random Quote of the Day: "Don't make someone your priority when they're only making you an option."

The Same Kind of Injury

Few hours ago I had an accident. If you were to witness it, you'd probably die laughing at how it happened. And that's probably why I won't even bother telling you how this happened. But I'll just be straight to the point...I tripped and something like a corner ( not quite sharp but sorta?) was where my right lower part of my leg landed on. That should've ripped or scraped my skin a good deal. But that didn't happen, I have a weird looking dent though. It's not an open wound but it seems like it suppose to be a scrape. Well it's a hematoma. Don't know what that is? Hematoma is when the skin is bruised & the blood inside drips to a certain spot where it is very visible. Usually from an injury. Sometimes comes with a sprain or even broken bone or slight fracture. I know I don't have a broken bone but it could be a "hairline" crack/fracture. I'm afraid of that cause that means I'll have to recover & what not.I can certainly walk fine w/ out feeling pain in my bone but it feels like skin & muscles or tendons are tight.Makes me limp sometimes. I don't wanna go see the doctor for it even though I should check & get an x-ray. Sigh, it hurts like mad crazy but I'm holding it in & bearing with the pain. I'll be taking pain-killers I guess.
I went through having Hematoma before, during the summer. Except, I beared with it & didn't get it checked or even rested myself for two months cause I wanted to go have fun. Stupid, right? I still walked like 3 miles when I knew I shouldn't due to the pain i felt that time. I know for sure now that I better rest, recover & try home remedies for this messed up leg.

Rawrs Again

Mr. Lon makes my day go blah.
I only typed that here for him to see :]


Uh, I'm in class right now. Bored, so bored. I'm hungry, lol. I haven't much for the past few days. I don't know, I skipped dinner for two nights and went on with out lunch, just breakfast thats all.It could be because my dad made some dish that...I find unappetizing.Though, I do snack on light foods but...Lately, I'm not that hungry when I'm doing anything school related, like assignments. I'm not gonna die or anything, I'm not worried about it, I still munch on some foods you know. I've been stuck on the essay for English. I literally stare at the paper or Microsoft word sometimes. It's not what I'm supposed to do, lol.

Yawn

This essay I have to do by friday, it's difficult! I'm talking about the one for English. Well it's not that difficult but it seems like you have to remember some things really well from the book The Catcher In The Rye. I meant stuff from the beginning as well. It's nerve wrecking in a way. Maybe it's cause I have never ( or maybe I have, lol) done a literary analysis. Then it's probably cause we're doing this on that book. I've never had this much trouble with an essay...Not including the time I had to write essays for Ternove's class in freshman year.

Everyday it feels like I'm growing more & more tired even with 8 hours of sleep. Odd. I've been in desperate need of espresso, energy drinks & even soda w/ caffeine. Something tells me it's not really a normal thing anymore...

"I am craving for something or maybe...Cravin' for somebody."
- Unknown.
Hah. Random kinky quote.

I am so awesome

Random topic. I am awesome! To a certain extent :]

Wanna know something? Today was partially awesome. This morning was just so awkward. I won't go into details but all I say is that I saw someone I haven't spoken to for a while and well...Surprisingly, we actually said something to each other. That doesn't mean anything will be the same like from the past. Things change & sometimes it's a little sad. Well, in the middle of day, during school, it was so blahhh. Like, very boring & what not. But after a while I guess it was pretty chill.

I need unlimited text messaging. I swear, eversince I've given my number to a few friends, I've been texting like there's no other day. My phone text plan is 200 limit. I bet I went over by 800 or more. Haha, I know for sure my dad will nag about it and bother me. Well, I'd blame myself, half of the texts are mostly stupid as hell & aren't even worth talking about over text messaging, which I over do a lot.