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Yesterday I checked up on Ms. Nelson. Well, it's not exactly checkin' up but more like stopping by and chat for a bit. I told her I couldn't really decide if I should go to Alvin's viewing because I really wanted to. See, my 5 year old brother wants to go to Sesame Place and my family wants me to go cause I never with them. They want me to go to the viewing because they know that I'll start my day off very sad & crying. The same day, today we're suppose to go Sesame place. If I'm sad and I'm going to a p[lace where we all should be happy and having fun as family, that may ruin it. And I don't want to ruin it for my brother. There's an event in Sesame place for autistic kids and my brother is one of them. Ms. Nelson, she told me I should go to Sesame Place and spend the day with them, skip the viewing. She said Alvin would want me to be with my family and be happy & whatnot. Nobody ever said that to me. And I think she's right, alvin would've wanted that. He's the type that doesn't want to be a burden to anyone. So I feel less bad for skipping. But still a bit sad. I think he'd want me to to keep my head up right now & don't be too sad. My prayers are with him though, definitely. R.I.P. Alvin.