R.I.P. Alvin

It's 5th period now. I went to forth lunch just because I didn't want to go to the library where everyone is mourning & talking about Alvin Way. I don't want to hear it too much since it's on my mind anyway. Mr. Mckenna was keeping his eye on the plasma T.V. in the lunchroom and then turned the volume very high. That, I knew, this was about Alvin. When I watched it and saw the update of the news about Alvin it just striked me like I never knew it. His heart really something to do with it. And when I saw a clear picture of him it was even more sad. Because I remember usually seeing him in the hallways. And one time he was joking around, I said shutup. That one memory made me guilty. But I also remember one time I tripped on the staircase while many students were there & saw it, he told his that ain't right to laugh since I was in pain. Like I've said, he's nice, not ignorant. He stands out fo the crowd & he different. Today isn't as dark as yesterday but still dark. Dark to that point it's way depressing to be in class or in school. I see people still crying and it makes me cringe. This is like proving that the good die young, and i hate that. It's no one's fault though. Nobody's. The atmosphere around my peers, it's awful. It effects my mood terribly. I swear it was hard to nap in class because of it. In biology I was picked to answer an easy question I always knew since I love biology. Well, I forgot it, completely for that moment. So I can't think too straight but I can still do work but...it's just not a day to do much, get me? 5th, 6th, & 7th I know those classes will be full of work. That annoys me. Well, a lot of things have been pissing me off. Event the kids who talk about Alvin's death and saying so many stupid things...I'd like a cup of green tea or something. A cup always helps me feel a little more calm. Tried that yesterday. It wasn't very effective. I felt weird.