Blah #7

I hate the stupid PSSA science!!!It pisses me off so much. Especially yesterday. But today I actually did it well. Lol. But still hate it because most of the time i get lost. I now realized science probably shouldn't be my thing...At least not a major. Lol, I love it though.

I miss Mr. Nap! Although Lon hasn't taught us yet. but still. His band's music is pretty good. Admiration! haha.

Actually I really wanted to talk about monday, about how I was real pisses & wanted to cry & whatnot. but I think I should move on. I didn't get to go, I can't do anything about it.

The macbook sucks. Not worth $1000. But it's pretty. But the functions are gay. GAY! Okay...I type horrible here. lol.

I don't feel good right now. I hate that. RAWRRRRRR. Lol, Alix is behind me. I don't think she likes the bacbook much either. She's not really using it much...I think.

Blah #7

I hate the stupid PSSA science!!!It pisses me off so much. Especially yesterday. But today I actually did it well. Lol. But still hate it because most of the time i get lost. I now realized science probably shouldn't be my thing...At least not a major. Lol, I love it though.

I miss Mr. Nap! Although Lon hasn't taught us yet. but still. His band's music is pretty good. Admiration! haha.

Actually I really wanted to talk about monday, about how I was real pisses & wanted to cry & whatnot. but I think I should move on. I didn't get to go, I can't do anything about it.

The macbook sucks. Not worth $1000. But it's pretty. But the functions are gay. GAY! Okay...I type horrible here. lol.

I don't feel good right now. I hate that. RAWRRRRRR. Lol, Alix is behind me. I don't think she likes the bacbook much either. She's not really using it much...I think.

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Yesterday I checked up on Ms. Nelson. Well, it's not exactly checkin' up but more like stopping by and chat for a bit. I told her I couldn't really decide if I should go to Alvin's viewing because I really wanted to. See, my 5 year old brother wants to go to Sesame Place and my family wants me to go cause I never with them. They want me to go to the viewing because they know that I'll start my day off very sad & crying. The same day, today we're suppose to go Sesame place. If I'm sad and I'm going to a p[lace where we all should be happy and having fun as family, that may ruin it. And I don't want to ruin it for my brother. There's an event in Sesame place for autistic kids and my brother is one of them. Ms. Nelson, she told me I should go to Sesame Place and spend the day with them, skip the viewing. She said Alvin would want me to be with my family and be happy & whatnot. Nobody ever said that to me. And I think she's right, alvin would've wanted that. He's the type that doesn't want to be a burden to anyone. So I feel less bad for skipping. But still a bit sad. I think he'd want me to to keep my head up right now & don't be too sad. My prayers are with him though, definitely. R.I.P. Alvin.

Alvin's Memorial

The memorial was actually pretty nice. Although it did made me shed a few tears, it's okay. I don't feel as sad as before. Or traumatized. Time heals us all. Well...I suppose it does so for some of us. Alvin's family, you can tell they tried holding an expression to not show that they're actually sad as (or mad) as hell. That's why his father cried while trying to make a a little speech. I feel better that I came to the memorial for Alvin. So maybe I may not go to the Viewing. I can't say I know him enough to go to the viewing. And of course that means I'm not coming to the funeral. But was thinking to have a quick visit for the viewing. I can't decide but I think I'll make up my mind soon. I think I'm still traumatized by sunday. That's probably why I feel like I want to go his viewing just so I wouldn't think of it anymore. I don't know.
I hope Ms. Nelson recovers from that tragic day. Eversince, I've been seeing her look as though she cried not long ago or taking it pretty hard. It's not all pity here, and I guess you could say that I worry a bit. Even Julie...But even more I could tell the family took it worse. That's their kid, you know?

Shoes! & Some Nice Shirt

So I've just done some online searching on some shoes I may want to buy. I definitely don't have the money to buy these all, so I need to choose. Sucks. But yeah, I think they look cute.

Tragedy hits...Again

This morning my cousin sent me a text message asking if i heard the bad news. she was saying something about how sorry she felt she didn't visit "him" friday. It was 4am, I was sleeping so I just went back to sleep. I looked at it more when I woke up for school. I knew something bad happened. It was obvious. My grandfather, my mom's dad passed away last night, during his sleep. I know my mom wouldn't take it too well & I didn't she knew yet so I kept quiet. I told my dad and uh...He probably was not listening. Well, he's no morning person so yeah. When I came back home from school I found that my mom was crying. Figures. One of my aunts or my grandmother told her. I was the only one really comforting her. She got over it quick. I can't say much about this. I mean, I never shared a moment with my grandfather. He didn't even remember me like that. Or talked to me for that fact. It's sad anyway. And I see there may be more commotions from the family. About...money. Sigh.



Update : 11:53pm
I was right. More commotion. More like drama. Why can't we all be at peace for a moment? Why have all this...Very shitty, I must say. Actually I'm not sure if I can look at my family (especially my dopey aunt) the same way anymore.

Just See The Light

We're getting out of the dark clouds for sure today. It's not as sad & I'm hearing more laughter from everyone including myself. Well, really not everyone. I saw Julie still crying, & I can totally understand...It'll take a while. But I think most of us are done crying. I heard there'll be a memorial for Alvin Way. Good thing! Teachers are bringing in foods & contributing some money. Nice. Although some teachers don't even know about this, lol
I can actually concentrate on my work now. And be a bit more normal. But I'm pretty delayed with my work in Chinese. Missing two or three packets. CRAP! And I still have to outline the comic for Mr. Nap. Man, I'm going to miss him teaching, It's funny sometimes. It's natural funny. The weekend is lookin' good. 82 degrees on Saturday & 80 on Sunday. My brother wants to go to Dorney Park on Saturday so why not! Nice day for a tannnnnn! lol. I feel like the rain & hot weather indicated something. The first two days we're pretty sad...And then as the days go by some of us come see the light & move on a bit.(Of course, never forgetting that tragedy on sunday.)

I want some Peach Iced Teaaa. Or no wait, Rasberry Iced Tea!

Oh crap, we have a project for Business Technology. OMG. I didn't do some of it. I did like two our four...or is it five? UGH. I don't have Microsoft installed on my brother's computer! (My only computer that still works in the house!) AHH! CRISES. Oh well. There's going to be a way...Maybe.

R.I.P. Alvin

It's 5th period now. I went to forth lunch just because I didn't want to go to the library where everyone is mourning & talking about Alvin Way. I don't want to hear it too much since it's on my mind anyway. Mr. Mckenna was keeping his eye on the plasma T.V. in the lunchroom and then turned the volume very high. That, I knew, this was about Alvin. When I watched it and saw the update of the news about Alvin it just striked me like I never knew it. His heart really something to do with it. And when I saw a clear picture of him it was even more sad. Because I remember usually seeing him in the hallways. And one time he was joking around, I said shutup. That one memory made me guilty. But I also remember one time I tripped on the staircase while many students were there & saw it, he told his that ain't right to laugh since I was in pain. Like I've said, he's nice, not ignorant. He stands out fo the crowd & he different. Today isn't as dark as yesterday but still dark. Dark to that point it's way depressing to be in class or in school. I see people still crying and it makes me cringe. This is like proving that the good die young, and i hate that. It's no one's fault though. Nobody's. The atmosphere around my peers, it's awful. It effects my mood terribly. I swear it was hard to nap in class because of it. In biology I was picked to answer an easy question I always knew since I love biology. Well, I forgot it, completely for that moment. So I can't think too straight but I can still do work but...it's just not a day to do much, get me? 5th, 6th, & 7th I know those classes will be full of work. That annoys me. Well, a lot of things have been pissing me off. Event the kids who talk about Alvin's death and saying so many stupid things...I'd like a cup of green tea or something. A cup always helps me feel a little more calm. Tried that yesterday. It wasn't very effective. I felt weird.

Tragedy

Today was the day we were all going to do the donor dash. I was thinking, as I got ready, it would be a wonderful day. I mean, even the weather was ok. No signs of a bad day or anything. Everyone seemed excited about walking or running for the donor dash when I came to the school. I was excited as well, even though it was just a 3k walk for me & some other people. When we got to the Art Museum, man, there was tons of people! I was feelin' so cheesy & all over Mckenna's daughter who was very adorable & reminded me of my niece a lot. I ran on the art museum steps with some kids & some teacher. I wasn't last, lol. We took pictures & then started our walk. The 3k walk was a breeze, it didn't last very long. During the walk, I noticed something wasn't right. It was that weird feeling but I never thought it was serious. I saw that the staff and Mckenna were bunched up and were talking...They look very serious as if something happened.( Maybe about the laptops which were stolen again.) I asked what was up since I was beside them & watching over Riley. They just told me it's nothing big so I just walked ahead a bit. Mckenna caught up and he seemed...fake. I don't know but that's how i saw it. I just walked without saying anything and when we were finished I stopped right at the finish line. Something wasn't right. The staff were grouped up and talking, serious matters I suppose. I walked up and saw an ambulance. Ms. Nelson and her daughter was crying hysterically. Ms. Nelson went into the ambulance, and from there on, I know it was beyond serious. You'd think about it, whoever it was that got "hurt" was in critical condition, or dead. I didnt know much. In fact, i kept getting wrong information from random people. I only knew somebody from our school ran, was out of breath, collapse & then died. I just stood there concerned. I've never seen so many people cry as much as my family did several years ago when one of my most awesome uncle died. And that made me feel unhappy. I didn't know who this person was but the fact that a student from my school died is just too sad. It teared my mood and couldn't think straight. I just went to the bus as i was instructed and everyone texted talking about what they heard. We got back to the school & the media(channel 6 news reporters.) looked hungry for our information. We just avoided them, I wanted to smack them if they tried being jerks. I saw Ms. Studebaker, I knew she was still so sad & traumatized so I had to give her a hug to make her feel a little better. Yeaseam didn't seem to take it so well either. He said he was one of the last ones that talked to him and saw that he collapsed. When it was announced about Alvin's death, it was like horrible...I don't know him very much, I've seen him every now & then. I remember he went on the D.C. trip with us. He seemed very nice & open-minded, not ignorant. I just went home and couldn't believe what I've heard. Like a nightmare, it seems. You know, I don't know the student much but like Mr. Williams said, we're all family. And we got to support our family. Doesn't matter if I barely know him, he's family. Everyone needs each other, especially this week. I don't mind giving hugs to random people who needs one & are still hurt about today. Tough, but we gotta stay strong. He's in heaven, a better place. He won't ever be forgotten, amen.

Blah! #6

These days I've woke up extra early to jog in the morning. It's killing my sleep. That's why I come to school a few seconds before I'm late as usual. Not cool. But hey I think it's feels nice to warm up in the morning.
I noticed my ipod laying in the dust...I haven't touched it for a long time! Mainly because it's getting old & the battery life sucks. I have the 3rd(?) generation of the video ipod 30gb for nearly three years. Lol, ipods will all die permanently someday. I know that. Sadly...I may try trading it in for it's worth, $50. Yeah...puny bucks, lol.

I'm probably weird for saying this but I'm actually excited about the Donor Dash. Sorta. I don't know what I was signed up for, 3k, 5k, 10k...gosh. Well I didn't sign myself up but whatever. I'm up for anything but 10k,lol. Can't decide if I should wear my sweats or just stick with jeans. Think I'll actually tie up my hair for the event for once too.
I want to do something tomorrowwww. But I don't know. I'm grounded & would to get out of the house anyway. Staying home isn't too healthy, that's the truth! Otherwise I'll just go to Chinatown & chill with Linda. I want her to help me pick out my hair dye anyway, hehe. Sigh, the weekend is just too short.
Babysitting idea...Isn't working out too well. I extended my idea to petsitting, personal assistant for those moms who are in need of help, uh...yeah. lol. Haven't asked around yet. But I've already a plan to get a job somewhere where I'm guaranteed to get one. Part of volunteering, anyway. Yays. Random blog entry,huh?

100th Entry!

Finally! The 100th blog entry I've made. Lol, cool. Well, some things aren't going so well as of now. My headaches sometimes feel like throbbing pain. I doubt that's okay. And I'm worried cause I have get out class or something. The nurse isn't any help, I like the old nurse from last year. She gives a dose that isn't right. I'm suppose to get two ibuprofen pills ever 4-6 hrs. She gives ONE. 200mg will not help a painful headache. She's stupid. So I ruin myself by being retarded in class sometimes. Also, my gangolian cyst(i know, disgusting even though it's just a bump lookin thing) on my wrist (hah! it rhymes!) is getting bigger...And hurts and gets in the way when I do certain tasks. Gangolian cyst? It's fluid or blood trapped near the veins & joints like wrists, ankles, etc. Mines, I had it for less than a year and my docter said it could go away or forever be there...But I shouldn't have to get it out surgically or whatever. They aren't serious and it could return anyway. So...I don't know, maybe I've done too much with that wrist which is my left. Funny since I'm right-handed.

I'm grounded for two weeks. DANG! That sucks! It's really going to nice outside during the weekends. 70 degrees which is beautiful & warm. Great for hitting the beach to sit there & read. Or walking on the boardwalk or something. But nooooo, I have to be grounded! Crap, the mistakes that I do are so retarded. I nearly lost my keys so my parents got pissed & whatnot. I'll think of a way to get out there...Lol.

Tomorrow...I have to wake up early to get to school and get my topis for the junior project. I hate waking up earlier than usual. But I guess I'll make myself to think as if I'm leaving for NHS. 7:15AM, I know I'll make it but I gotta bring in an AMP or I'll die. I probably would be the first to sign up that morning. Lol. Nerd! But it's okay. I don't know what I'll do after signing up though, since nobody I know would come that early. I hope I can just walk around the school without the crazy security guard lady (not Regina) catching me & b*tching at me. I'm a good student...Behavior wise. lol. End of entry, I'm bored. I think I'll go get some iced coffee from dunkin donuts later. I rather have Starbucks Caramel Macchiatto Espresso but too bad Philadelphia's Target doesn't have Starbucks yet.

CRISES

OMG my phone won't recieve texts well. Let alone it doesn't send texts too well either. So something about it isn't right. Right about now, I want to call the service. But that's if the noise here won't stop. If it's complete silence, I'd be dead & caught. And well, I don't want my innocence to be figured out, you know. Lol. I'm hungry. But I never eat the food here in school. It's not that crappy but I just don't want to eat in that lunch room since it's over crowded. Even if I do go down there, I still don't eat, lol. But then that's why I go crave for asian food and whatnot.

Another Crises! MY hair is growing too slow! And it's black. Well, it's like dark-ass brown. But you'd only see it under the light really well. I was thinking to dye my hair golden brown...but I'm not sure. I actually want to have one side of my hair dyed with some light color. But probably not that bronze-blonde again like in freshman year, that was an accident with hair bleaching. I thought of purple but there would be difficulies...This girl who works at MAC makeup stand in Macy's, she has purple hair for a while. I should ask...lol. Since she does know me a little it won't seem too weird. Thought about blossom pink, but GaGa has that color & it'll be strange. Turquiose is cool but...not for everyday haircolor. I hate deciding these things. But almost all of my friends say BLONDE. I don't mind since it'll only be part of hair, not all over. but i don't know. Most definitely in June I'll get more layers in my hair & get the ends of hair thinned since I hate it when my hair is too thick & frizzy.I'm not really cutting it though so it'll grow out.Yay for maintenance.

I want...Water ice. I hate projects. But Junior project, fine, whatever. Ohh, I wanted to chill with some friends this saturday but that day I may get my x-rays...And you know, health comes first. Otherwise if your health is horrible how can you chill with friends? Lol, kidding.

Yesterday I forgot to mention I felt something strange and thought something may happen to my grandfather...Good thing he's okay, i think. No one told me anything yet but I hope it's all good.

Today - A Change (Of Heart?)

So I said that I didn't really want to visit my mom's father. It's not that I wanted to be mean, I was scared & I thought it'll be mad awkward. Recap? He's dying from Cancer and his heart pacer is not working too well. Heart is weak now. So He's in the Jefferson hospital (2nd time) and everyone but me & James & Jeff visited. So I had to go today with them. Honestly, I really wanted to stay home. But of course my mother forced me, which I now appreciate that she did so. When I came to the room, I saw him. He looked so different to me. And I've seen him so many times before, he's looked like he lacked food (majorly) and ill. He didn't know who I was. I mean he knows I exist but never paid attention to me or the females family members before he was diagnosed with cancer. I just shook his hand and said hi. He looked cold & in pain. I didn't know he was suffering more than I was told. Just saying hi & shaking his hand immediately made some of connection. Looking at him made me feel more sorry for him. I was close to crying but I was doing a good job holding it in. I mean, it's horrible for me to even think this way but it looked as though he won't make it. All the medicines aren't effective enough. For him to have an I.V., they can't find his vein just because he's skinny & sh*t.They even made an accident with the needle of the I.V. and then his back of his hand was bleeding like nuts. I thought he would die that time for blood loss, gosh. You couldn't tell if he were awake or sleeping. Even if he's talking, he's probably asleep. Although, he don't say things that's random or anything. What's pitiful is that his medical insurance won't pay for these medicines that he has to take. YET, they'd pay for the T.V. in his room, What the hell? So, since they wouldn't pay for meds, hell, why not make them pay for the T.V.? So yeah...And the doctor who is some Chinese douche-bag, he wants my grandfather to leave the hospital soon. The insurance covers for 11 days, today was the 8th day. That guy is a JERK. At least support your own kind. Because most meds haven't worked well, he wants him to be discharged being that there's nothing more they can do to help. Well, we want him to stay till he gets a little better. The hospital can't kick any patient out. Even if they come after someone in the family for the bills, who cares. They can't charge you or make your credit bad. They get enough funding and money for themselves. A hospital can only bother you for so long anyway. I felt good to visit him. And before anything happens, I would like to go visit again.

Strange

It's funny how it seems like so many people are dying. Well, they're suffering at the same. Life threatening type of suffering. I should be crying about it or hype or even worried as hell...But I'm not. I'm always wondering about it, but not anything like you'd feel if you were close to these people. My grandfather, he's basically dying. All my aunts be saying to him "we'll go eat out next time so get better soon". Really? What if there is no "next time"? I mean I'm not saying that because I'm pessimistic or anything. I'm not that negative. But the fact that he's suffering from a poor heart (pace maker(?) not workin' so well. Cannot be replaced due to his old age), and liver cancer. It's ridiculous. He was eating healthy and doing healthy activities, or so I've heard. You'd expect him to be healthy and avoid being in the hospital. See, that's strange. But then again maybe it goes by karma. I only believe in it by 50% so I don't really care. Today, almost everyone in the family visited him in Jefferson Hospital. Me & my two cousins are the only ones who haven't done so. Not my fault, I had to watch my 5 year old brother & I don't think he should go visit since he's so young. tomorrow, I have to go there with my cousins. It's gonna be so awkward when I see him. i mean, he doesn't even know that I'm his granddaughter. No, it's not cause he's got bad memory. He never cared or whatever. Yet he pays full attention and favors the boys in our family. How lame. But...It's sorta different now. I bet he regrets a bit. Or a lot. The weird thing is that I have to go to him, tell him my name & state the fact that I'm his granddaughter. It's like the first meeting or something (I met tons of times. I'd say hi, he'd just fully ignore me.) and who knows...maybe the last. My mom is scared as hell. I never knew what to say though. I could only say a few sentences. What more can I say? I don't know the man. Barely. He's not the only one suffering though. My grandmother is. But that's probably why she won't look at her husband. Her, on the otherhand, I know her. I know how annoying she can get too. But the fact that I know her well enough, it would hurt & change a lot. All this, is tied to another situation which I won't bother mentioning. It's so whack. But then again, a lot of things are.
I'm not depressed or anything. Well, I think. but it's like it's hard to be wild & smile & be jumpy at the moment when I know about all that. I don't know. Even if I become cheery, it's probably fake. Or I'm hungry & drank too much energy drinks + coffee.

Keepin' It Up

Right now,I'm tryin' to be nerding. Well, I've been. Eversince I got a C & D 2nd marking period. I couldn't believe how much it destroyed my good life & profile. One of them, the D, wasn't even a major subject. It's crazy. But I don't want these grades. Otherwise I can't be in Honors Society. That's the only good thing about me, currently. Honors Society. Because all the other things, are gone. Unfortunately thanks to 2nd marking period's grades I've been givin' up on. And I know for sure that 3rd marking period I did well. All A's & B's. Don't know what my GPA is but hopefully it's the best. I didn't earn some of the grades...It's extra credit from those Saturday schools. And probably pity, from a few teachers. Yeah, I know my grades even though I didn't get the report card, sweet. Well, I wanna keep the grades. 4th marking period, I'm not quite sure I can do it again. We'd have finals in some classes, & I do the worst on those things. I highly doubt in Algebra 2 I can get a B again. I might screw up on the finals and get a D...Like last year. I know for sure Robinson will give us finals. But it's terrifying what the subject will be. The finals don't have to be Algebra 2, it could be Statistics or Calculas. GAY. All other subject I may do well on. Chinese...Well, hopefully I'd get a B or higher. I'm confident, a bit. But I really don't want a C or even worse, a D. Since 4th marking period teachers can override the grades, I guess I'll just be NICE. And suck up. What? Lots of people do it. I care about my grades. I'm sick of getting ugly grades and poor GPAs. Not only that, I'm envious of a certain somebody. And I wanna top their grades. Call it a competetition if you'd like. I don't want colleges seeing the uglyness. Especially since I messed up my ACT. Maybe I wouldn't do too bad on SAT. But that's why I'm "nerding". Okay, I'm trying. Or more like an attempt. Hah. I wish I had a brain like Thelma from Scooby Doo. ( Right Mr. Nap or Mr. Semi-Baldy?) Then I know for sure I'd get into West Chester, Temple, & University of Pittsburgh just like that.

Crappy Spring Break(using cellphone)

During my break,my head still had the on & off symptoms of headaches & dizziness.started eversince saturday,ACT day.it even happened as i read In Cold Blood.Im not blaming the book.it certainly isnt stress maybe its the accident.this wont let me type more

Woke Up Latee

I'm using my little brother's computer. This is one of the rare moments that he'll let me use it. Usually he'd yell in my ear to make me get off and beat him up. (I don't really...beat him up, lol.) So I just took at a look at my posts from yesterday when I tried to use my phone for internet. I think it looks terribly retarded, being that it's into 4 parts for one stinkin' blog entry. Well, I'm sorry. But like I've said before, I've got my new computer and I just have to hook it up & set it up. I only got the new computer just so I can do my junior project when we have to start & whatnot. Today is gay. Why? Cause it was raining. And since it's ended, it's dewy outside. I don't like that only because that frizzes up my hair. I'm just gonna go shopping at the mall in Cherry Hill...with my shopaholic friend, lol. I hate Cherry Hill Mall, they have gayest sales. But whatever.

Pt 4(oh my gosh) of Spring Break

I spended time w/ the fam & friends.Sameoldthing.This sunday i'm holdin a easter hunt for my bro & little kids.it'll be cute.Khmer New year is the 13th or 14 of the month.for once i wana celebrate w/ friends & my 2nd dad since they're cambodian anyway :)

PT 3 of Spring Break

It annoys me to have 1 topic entry into several parts.if my phone was capable to use the reg.web pages i can use this like with a cpu.sucks.Sorry Mr. Nap!I just got my new cpu i just have to set it up.so far my break was boring but at least i did some

Pt 2 of Spring Break

So The cpu wont let me reinstall the antivirus.well it dont work properly.i refuse to reformat cpu since cpu seems to always have issues.now i just use my phone for internet which isnt good.i cant input much for each post in blogger thats y i separate it.

Spring break

My computer is messed up!eversince I updated it to service pack 3!i DID back up info & files.I noticed after the upgrade,it was slow,corrupted many files(which i couldnt delete),screwed firefox & itunes severly,AND DESTROYED MY ANTIVIRUS which I paid for.

Blah #5(?)

For the whole day I haven't experienced any headaches or dizziness & whatsoever. Good thing! But I'm still going to get myself checked out by getting an x-ray just in case. After all, the head is most important and you can never be too careful. Well I overslept a lot today. It's a shame cause I wanted to do something with Linda today. But then again it feels nice to oversleep on a monday! Lol. I didn't do much but I did remember that I bought MAC Hello Kitty Lip product in "BigBow". I tried it, it's actually a lot prettier & suitable for daily use than I thought. See, it's a bright pink, almost fuchsia but brighter & sheer when applied. It was the last one from the MAC counter in Macy's. Lol, the lady behind me wanted the same lipstick and she seemed disappointed or more like angry. Honestly, I like the color so much I tired lookin up online for dupes of the color. There's none but a few somewhat similar dupes. I looked up ebay, they sold it overpriced! Okay I just wanna buy another since this Hello Kitty edition is LIMITED! It'll be sold out soon, I'm sure. I can buy it online since it's not sold out completely yet but...it's troublesome. OH whatever. After I did my research and thoughts, I decided to contribute my time to think bout the trip to Wildwood with my friends. Really, I haven't thought about it for a while and we're behind schedule. We need to find the routes(bus) that go directly to wildwood without stopping at Atlantic City and transfer from there. So I'm getting Danielle to find that out. And I got Liz to call up the places we'll visit to see if they open this week. We just want to visit to prepare for the real trip on June. This friday, hopefully, won't rain. Or rain for long. Because that's the day we'll go there and visit. and surely we want to take a walk at the boardwalk if not too cold.
Carnival on Wednesday! YESSH! So my friends wanted me to tag along with them. But the thing is I must get my x-ray and results on tuesday so that'll decide if i can go or not. Well...I don't feel retarded. And I don't think my head's internally bleeding(thought no ones able to tell unless they take a cat scan)but I think I'm ok.
I think this week I'll do at least one day of community service. since Ms. Mitsis did give a schedule of community service with BwB. Oh! And there'll be a poker night I think...on wednesday? It's not real gambling, otherwise I wouldn't play since I'm not into throwing even one dollar away for something dumb. I'm getting pretty good at poker though. I've played a few different kinds of poker, even the wackest versions. I'm nearly broke on Texas HoldEm Poker on Facebook, due to my earlier attempts at playing. It's enjoyable as long as it's not with money.

So far, this Spring Break isn't too bad. It's not like usual, but it's starting out alright.

Headache

Lately this headache has still been goin' on. Still on & off. I'm becoming more & more positive that this isn't really from stress or lack of sleep or something. Well, I'm sure. I'm scared to even say that it could from the car accident. I know it's been a month and a half ago but it could still be a connection. My head just keeps getting a bit dizzy, achy, and weird. And sometimes sleepy. Sometimes lightheaded. And I don't think it's completely normal. Some spring break this is turning out to be. A whiplash can cause crazy things...Maybe I should get an x-ray soon. Or an MMR or MNR? I forgot what it's called.

ACT & other matters

I can't believe time went by so quick. It felt like not long ago I signed up for the ACT. I was really scared and nervous when I went to my testing room. Bad start! I forgot my I.D. but luckily the teacher didn't give a crap. When I was taking the ACT, reading the third passage of some boring story, I swear the words on the booklet were getting blurred. And my head was havin' some problems! Like I was dizzy a bit & it hurted. More like nauseous. It's weird, I wasn't THAT nervous! Otherwise the same thing would've happened when I took the PSSA. I don't know...But I guess I was stressed at the moment. But I tried hard to focus and ignore the headache & nausea, although that made me go slow and couldn't finish correctly. During break, I definitely felt better after 5 minutes of air & whatnot. Seems like it really is from stress then. When I continued the test, 15 minutes later my head was becoming whack again. I thought it was cause my head was bent too low or something but even if I sat and positioned myself straight, I still didn't feel good. Bad thing about it was I just had to reread questions since I felt distracted. GOSH! Oh well. I did whatever I could. Stupid stresss.

So, my Spring Break just became official. And actually, I still have been getting headches throughout the day but it's on and off. I wonder...
Well I definitely do NOT want to spend my days at home bored.(That doesn't mean I don't want to spend time with my family of course) I wanna get out and do whatever. I just found out I'm late and behind scheduling with my trip. I've been so sidetracked and didn't even think about it for a week...

Difficulties Already!

It's 4th semester and well, it just started. I'm trying to set the goal here. I have to do better than I usually do cause it really isn't enough. Or actually it's really good but I have to work hard to keep the good grades. In other words, no C's or lower. Hard to keep up with the record cause I'm lazy and stuff. Lately, I'm trying to keep up with Chinese with all those packets we get daily. I can't keep it up well, but same with many people. It's hard. And on top of that, there are other assignments that aren't super simple. It leaves me dying on my table when I'm done. I hate it, I'm crashing more than ever. And I have that comic thing I am suppose to do...Gosh, I'm tired. Well the comic title is something to do with...Shoes. Lol. It might not be funny but I'm trying. Whatever.